While I have now been sober for multiple years, that doesn’t take away the fact that some things still remained a bit foggy. Of course addiction usually is wrapped around an obsessive habit or a substance. But holy shit, does it go a million miles further than that.

There were times in my life where I would get many bouts of large gaps of sobriety time. But I kept falling back, over and over again, no matter how long my recovery was going. This stage here today, where I am at three years clean is a whole different world of…

I am coming up close to my 600th publication of articles and stories. It was a little over three years ago where my life as a writer truly exploded, and in that time, I have been able to build a complex, multi layered, prolific library of work. I have kept the focus on subject matter that follows my trial, tribulations and insight. Much of which presents a giant look at my life experiences dealing with drug addiction, depression, anxiety, and all other forms of serious mental health issues. Struggles I have suffered with, for a long time.

While those diagnoses…

The title of this piece is a solid question, but it’s one that we probably never put much consideration into. If any at all. However, when I give you the answer that I think it correct, many readers might totally agree that I make sense. To me, I think it’s all about emotions. Expert state that the real question should be, “what emotions get in your way of seeing through on commitments?” When I was learning about this, I did have an “ah-ha” moment. Because it made so much sense. And it didn’t seem at all difficult to answer.

Many…

As I enter into two weeks post surgery for Umbilical Hernia repair, I would like to reflect on it, and share my own experience with anyone out there, looking for information, and consideration into getting the same type of surgery. It’s a journey that may sound very common, when it comes to medical procedures that we all might go through, however, we are all quite different, and one person’s reaction, may in fact differ from many others. To call what I went through as “typical” might not be the case. But to share each of our experiences is a general…

Often times we forget the most basic of factors in our day-to-day lives. We seem to switch gears to autopilot, and we just go and go and go. Experiences, of all kinds, are literally happening, and big, small, good, and bad. Every one of those experiences is seemingly brushed aside, ignored, or we are completely oblivious to them. There are other times, where the things that are missed, are the blessing and lessons ready to be learned. Ones that come in disguise.

A problem that comes with this can be described as over-analyzing anything remotely negative, and not putting any…

I have always found the subject of dreams quite fascinating. There have been countless times throughout my life, where I have woken from a dream, absolutely impressed, with the rather uniquely driven entertainment that comes with so many dreams.

Entertained, at the balance of familiarity, and confusion, that come from the many adventures had while sleeping. There are always things we know in our lives, represented in our dreams. We may see peoples or places that reflect our reality. But it is those same things that are often set, in a much weirder, and non realistic way.

When I use…

Destiny is often in our hands. It is an effect of the choices we make, and the solutions we find, as we move throughout our lives, day by day. It is a hard truth that can often lead to misdirected negative emotions and feelings. Once we can find our paths to an acceptance of this fact about destiny, it is then the chance for us to choose to right fork in the road.

Accepting our destiny as our own creation can take two very different paths. We may choose a negative source as the power behind our acceptance. In ways…

When I have lapses in my writing, I realize I feel like I am less accountable. While I am not out in the world right now running around, doing things wrong, nor am I doing anything to cheat myself, or someone else, it still can feel like I’m cutting myself short. I hadn’t originally planned to publish any articles today, but the more that plan sunk in, the more I wanted to veer from it, and do the total opposite.

Something inside my mind was telling me to write because that way I wouldn’t end up cheating myself. Now if…